Champagne, champagne...

Had a great time last night By the Sea with AT and P and some SC-people.
AT and myself, true to our Grand Cru-fellows, had a few glasses of champagne. Then we realized that a bottle would be cheaper in the long run and ordered that :)

Got home at a decent hour in spite of the Billecart-influence ;) Was walking home and listening to John Legend in my Ipod and I danced a little bit... at least until I realised that I wasn't alone. Felt quite embarrased but I blame the Billecart - Legend-combo *l*

Today I'm stopping by NK to shop some stuff that I want and need. "If I want it - I need it" Will check with Hannah if she has time to join me.
Since it's so little to do at work, I'm taking both Thursday and Friday off. On Monday most people are back from vacations and everything takes off again. I hope I'll get some more stuff to do then. Having absolutely nothig to do is really no fun.

Tonight I'm going to try to install my digitalcamera SW on my computer. Hope it'll work out nicely... Have to go and pick up a pic-cd at sis' place to.

Haven't talked to J yet and the more I think about it the more I feel like it's best left alone. Him and me is never going to happen and that's ok now that I know for sure. What is worse is that I don't feel comfortable around him anymore so I avoid calling or talking to him. That feeling is going to disappear - I know that... been there and done that sort of. But I just hope that he will still be around and be there for me as my friend when I'm over him... It's always oh so easy to say "sure we'll be friends" but when things really happen you'll quickly learn who your friends are and who you can count on.

Gonzo will be back from Spain this weekend so August will be fab-strutting godess-month :) Looking forward to soulnight at Marie Laveau and F12... Wish the weather would be nicer...

Will call G today and see if we can meet and catch up before it gets to busy for me.

Now playing Uffe's Ipod - Jackson 5 - Blame it on the boogie :) haven't heard that song in months...

So, it's almost 10 and I haven't had my coffee yet... gotto go now.

Take care

Song of the day: Question of time - Depeche Mode

Someone told me

that a date is like a jobinterview with cocktails... I tend to agree :) even if cocktails add a certain je ne sais quoi to it all...
Worked on the 500list again last night and got it pretty good. Added: fast learner, no stress and positive attitude. Those qualities I know for a fact that I have.

Called Patricia back yesterday. She was upset about her final degree and had tried all summer go get a meeting with our teacher. He on the other hand has totally broken down due to a heavy workload and some girlfriend-problems... We are having lunch today so she'll tell me all about that and some other gossip. She is helping me out with Annica's party too which is nice. Got an email from Annica yesterday saying that the place she had booked isn't working due to some kind of security issues... So now we need to find a new place and she want to bring her own food and wine... Patricia is helping me look. I'll probably also will need someone to help me handle the bar at the party.

So about the date: Kevin called me and said he was running late and wouldn't be at Bistro Jarl until 6.30. So I picked up my favourite magazine (Livets Goda) ordered a glass of rosé and waited. At 6.50 he hadn't showed up yet so then I left... Can't really be bothered to wait for people who don't even have the decency to call and say that they are not coming/running late. Oh well at least I got a nice moment reading and drinking good wine.

Speaking of wine: the Grand Cru club are planning a champagnetasting and apparently I'm leading it. God need to do some quick catching up then. Might be meeting AT tomorrow for drinks and planning at Nox.

Last night I tried to do some updates on the new computer but it didn't really work the way I wanted it. I will also need to download some antivirusstuff and some sort of firewall. At least I got around to get the broadband now. I do surf but I'm using someone elses wireless network :)

Tomorrow I'm stopping by NK to do some shopping. Got a 500 sek gift certificate for my birthday that I intend to spend :) and I also need some fall shoes. Summer feels like it's totally over now. Last night and this morning it was raining like crazy.
On Friday we are going to see Fantastic Four, could be nice. I loved all those Marvelcomics turned into films. I mean how great wasn't X-men I and II?!? Ok, Hugh Jackman is a hunk but the films where still great.

Anyway, need to send some emails now. Might as well make good use of my time when I need to be in the office :)

Have a great day!

Song of the day: A Change is gonna come - Sam Cooke

Nice Weekends....

like the one I had are just great.
Friday I met up with J and bought a computer. Eventually I got a HP of some kind. It looks very nice which obviously is important to me :)
Then onto dinner with the folks. Got home at aorund 1.30 since I missed the subway and had to walk home... In the rain...

Got the usual "I miss you" text mess from A at 3.30 :) Answered the next day asking him how he liked Barcelona... No response until Saturday, this time at 4.14 "Miss you and wish you were here"...

Saturday I intended to get out of bed early - didn't really do that. Managed to get going to Solna C and pick up my X-maspresent. Got a really cool pair of briefs - red and very soft. Johan, who got them seemed to like them a lot. I also got a really cool belt "Dont play stupid wtih me..I'm better at it" written on it. Am going back to pick up another one that says "I don't need your attitude, I got one of my own" Damn, that is so cool...

Then it was the date... The guy looks very hot. Very much "my type" tall, dark, shaved head and a lot of attitude, would say he is a 5/10. (God I'm so judgemental...)
He was very nice and we had some interesteing conversations during our shopping. Then we went for coffee and got something to eat. I needed to pick up some new bling so he went with me for that to. We decided that we are going to met again some night this week and go for drinks...

Then back home to shower and change into my fab-partyself. :) Met up with J and H at Storstad for some wine before the party. I was running late as usual...
Ended up wearing the white shoes, new Acnejeans and Xuly Bet halterneck top. Apparently J reads this blog since he asked about "the fab shoes". Must say he has a great sense of fashion ;)

At the party I was seated with Peder, Lost and Johan among others. All of them very nice. H sat next to an incredibly cute guy so I walked over there with some champagne and we ended up having a great time the three of us.

At around 1 we went back to Storstad and had that last glass of wine... you know the one you shouldn't have! There we ran into G, who I had a huge crush on some 10 years ago. We exchanged numbers and are seeing eachother to catch up some night this week. He is still gorgeous...

Will be nice to met him again. Went home and sent some textmessages to J as I usually do when I'm drunk... He was out partying at Berns I think. The one thing I really hate about thiw new phone is that it saves sent messages. I mean if I don't actually see the messages I've sent I can deny it but no... They are stille there Delete Delete Delete..... ;)

Sunday was the after-party brunch. Also very nice. Got to talk to P. We actually stayed at Hoffmans until I had to leave for dinner with the Portugal-posse at Mosebacke at 6. Had such a nice time and decided to meet again soon :)

The Portugal-issues are not quite solved but we are on our way... Decided that, if we go again next year, we shall try to prepare more and everyone has to try harder. If there is something you don't want just say that. Right then and there... I know I have to work on that to but since I am quite flexible when I travel I just follow where ever the others go. At least as long as I get to drink some wine and do some shopping :)

So tonight I have another date: Kevin 36. He called me twice yesterday and disturbed me both times. He sounds very nice. Will do the usual thing and let him decide the place. Says so much about someone how they handle that. If he says Berns, NOX or some place like those I'm happy. Would he suggest some creepy bar at Söder I'm gone :) or even worse an english pub. There is one person who can take me to an english pub and get away with it and that's Dan! Noone else.... ever....

Worked on the 500list again last night. Feels actually quite nice to really thing through the things about myself that I like. Got some tips from Peder S on things to do...

Damn, need to talk to J soon. I wish I hadn't said anything to him but it's too late for regrets now.. I should have done what I usaully do: just let it go and move on but since I really liked him both his personality and his ... hm bedside manors ;) I really couldn't do that.
But anyway - life goes on and so do I with or without him and I'll be wearing fab shoes :)

Just made a desicion: will call him today and set a "date" and just get it over with.

So hope you had a nice weekend

Take care out there

Love/E

Song of the day: Have yourself a merry little X-mas - Bing Crosby :)

and a special thansk to Maria and Peter for a great party!!!

Rainy Dayz...

last night and most of the day it's been raining... Can't believe it's the end of July. To me it seems like summer is over, too bad because I had planned to go on a boat trip with Johan and some friends next week.

Tomorrow is the X-mas party and I still haven't go something red and soft... I'll take a tour round town after work today and try to find something. If nothing else works I'll get some red and soft candy - but how funny is that- or maybe I'll get some underwear... The problem is that I don't know who it's for. So if it's for a total prude underwear might come off totally wrong...

And on Sunday it's an After-party-brunch wich might be nice too :) Seems like it'll be a fun weekend.

And tomorrow is also the shopping-date. We are going to met at the furniturestore at 1 pm and then have lunch. I've told him that I can't be that long since it's the party and I need to go home and do girlsstuff ;)

I might actually buy a computor today. J is helping me to choose one. Good thing because the technology is not really my thing...Have been trying to call him but no answer... maybe he is out in his canoe. Crazy guy!

On the 500list I added: smart, independent and funny... I'm going to ask someone who knows me if they agree or not. But do I really want to know what people think of me?!?! Do you ever really tell someone what you think of them? I don't... I usually only tell people the good stuff and not the bad.
I do believe, however, that it's sometime better to tell people the bad stuff so they can work on it.

I wish I could find someone who would tell me "I like you because of who you are and not what you do or who you do it with" That would be the ultimate egoboost, wouldn't it?!?!

My co-worker Lakis told me that he was in Thailand during the Tsumani. Him, his girlfriend and her friend almost got caught in the waves. I so glad he made it otherwise I would never have met this great and extremely intelligent guy that he is. He said that the only thing going through his head was that he needed to keep his girlfriend safe. I wish someone would think tht of me. I suppose my mother would think that but it's part of her jobdescription ;)

Sis is coming back from Cologne to night so I can finally get ome fashiontips. Do I get away with wearing a green 18thcentury coat and jeans?? Tried it on yesterday at home and felt really comfortable.

Terrible all this that's been going on in London lately! I'm glad I'm not there. God I hope Andre is ok!! Have to call him later just to check...

Well got to get going now. I have cocktails to drink and stuff to shop ;)

Take care/E

Song of the day: The Storm is Over - R Kelly

Missing...

my Prince double cd. I have lent it to someone and I can't remeber who it is. George Michael and Diamonds and Pearls are also MIA. F*CK!!!
I started sorting through all my cd's last night and I have made some questionable choices when it comes to music. For example I have three (3) Nordman albums.... why I'll never understand! They truly suck but maybe I bought them during my "Oreo"-period, I don't know.

I can't believe how many cds I have - must have spent so much money on music!

Face is better today. I can actually smile without looking like I had a bad lipjob :)
Came home from jogging yesterday just to find a black spider in the tub... not the big creepy kind but still quite unpleasant. Flushed it down the drain...The money I spent on the phobia-therapy has paid off a million times. Talk about money well spent!

Worked on the 500-list last night. Added: kind, generous and diplomatic. Are these qualities I have or qualities I wish I had??? Hard to know but I try to be kind and diplomatic all though one thing I know is that it is very obvious (at least for those who knows me) when I don't like someone. Smalltalk with people who don't really interest me have never been my strong suit. Need to work on that.

The Portugal-issues needs to be solved to. We have more or less decided that we are going to meet and talk it out. Mostly what happened between H and M&J. They can be difficult since they are very very egocentric and I guess H just got enough. The problem escalated due to the carrental. When you agree to be the driver for an entire group you have to do it all the time not only when you want to... And since J is the way he is - never really says what he wants- it's even harder. He depends to much on M to speak for him... Must be hard to live with someone like that.

Maybe H is right: the less emotional attachment the better...I tried that when i was with Sebastian some years ago. Didn't really work then and I don't belive it'll work better now.

So, now I know that people actaually read this page :) Quite nice...
Got an SMS from J with some reactions on what I wrote yesterday... Suppose we both make assumption and are not exactly clear. Some things are missed out in writing. Well, I belive that is cleared up now and we (I) can move on.

Oh speaking of moving on. I have a date on Saturday. We are going furnitureshopping. Kind of an unusual thing to do on a date but it's always nice to try something new. Jonas, the guy, is from SD and seems very nice. He loves design and fashion - good and David Bowie - bad...

Sorry to any DB-fans but he is not really doing it for me.

Well I better get back to work now. Office-cutie, being the total analfixated idiot that he is has, of course, comments on my work. I have to redo an document in Excel - I wrote it in Word....

Good thing I practised yoga and know how to calm myself down. But I know that one of these days I'll give a not-so-nice-piece of my mind....

Take care
/E

Song of the day: Missing - Everything but the Girl

Numb

in the face... due to a visit at the dentist this morning.
I think I nearly passed out for a minute there but it eventually worked out.

For Maria's party on Saturday "X-mas i July" I'm supposed to get something redand soft for a guy... Right now I have no idea what to get but I'll take a tour round town after work today and try to find something. Hannah is getting something blue and soft...
It's a really great idea Ithink. I was thinking about throwing a party where the guests had to bring at least 1 person noone else knows...This opens for some really new and exciting introductions I believe.

So, talked to J yesterday on the phone. He called me for some reason, will never understand why...
All this is not about him... it's about the fact that I've had 2 really tough years and once I stop and rest it all catches up with me. I guess I should explain that to him so we can stay friends. In some weird way I think he understands me...
Will see J on Saturday - wonder when he'll tell me about his new girfriend...

Will call A, he is after all a shrink ;), and get some advice on how I shall handle this situation.

Oh, got this guy after me at Spraydate he claims to be rich and "all that" and my "dreamman". Yeah right, if you're not Lenny K - leave :)

Stopped by sis' place yesterday and uplaoded the photos from Portugal. Will try to post some pics here. We are all meeting to talk about what went wrong in the Porto-house. Something has happend to the gang and this is not a positive something. I don't know if it was because Maria came along or what but we need to figure it out so that we can keep meeting and travellin glike we do. Next year (if it'll be a next year) I will lobby for France: a few days in Paris and then somewhere else.

Worked on my 500 -list yesterday. It's quite easy to get the first 2 or 3 but I guess it will be harder as I go along.

Nothing to do today at work and no office-hottie to watch either. Wonder where he is.
Had this dream last night: Martin and I had for some reason to share a hotelroom and he was sleeping on the couch. Woke up in the middle of he night so sure that he was in my apartment... Strange - wonder what it means.

Hmmm, what shall I wear to the party on Saturday??? Need to wear my new fab white shoes - but what else? Have to depend a bit on the weather. Today it's quite cold and rainy actually...

Well, have a nice day and take care

Love/E

Song of the day: Numb - Linkin Park

Perfection...

is overrated! After 32 years of trying to live up to the expectation of others I have finally decided that I don't give a shit anymore. I have to make myself happy and not bother with what others think of me.
Can't believe it took me so long. I am not perfect but I can do my best and noone can expect anything more from me, they don't have the right to!

Today I'm starting to write a list of 500 things about myself that I love. Am going to add at least 2 things a day.

I know now for a fact that J and I are no more, unfortunately we are no longer friends...He hurt me too much by not being honest with me. I will miss him but life goes on and I might as well go with it and you'll never know where it takes me :)

I have a lot to be greatful for: my health, great job, great friends and family, lovely apartment and a great sense of fashion ;) and I'm fab!

Do things happen for a reason? I don't know but I hope so. There's been a lot going on in my life lately and now I really know where I can turn for unlimited support and love even when I don't deserve it.
Most people are lucky if they find one soule mate- I am lucky enough to have 3.
They are my luck and my soul and pick me up wherever and whenever I fall.

So, enough of the drama: was out on the town yesterday with office-hottie M looking for a new couch. Wanted to see what he would look like on it since he might end up there some night ;) Then dropped by Åhlens to return the bag I bought since it broke the first time I used it. Very bad but returning it wasn't a problem. Need to pick up another one this weekend. Oh saturday is Maria's X-mas in Summer-party. What shall I wear?? Will definetly wear my new white shoes from Porto but what else?? Hannah and I are going to strutt our stuff there. I hope there will be dancing, haven't gone out dancing in ages...

Well better get back to work now

Love/E

Song of the day: You've got a friend - The Brand New Heavies

Back from Portugal

So, I'm back in business... Had a great vacation in Lison and Porto!
We had a new addition to the Gang: M's girlfriend quite the perky type I would say :)
Hannah and I spent most of the time together: shopping and drinking wine before noon.

The first couple of days were spent in Lisbon: shopping and sightseeing. We also took a trip to Sintra, the old castle outside Lisbon. Very beautiful and full of tourists. Mi and I made a quite funny story for the videocam. One night we went to a fadoconsert at the old castle - absolutely fab, totally amazing!
On Saturday we where off to Porto by train, a 3 hour trainride which we spent playing card and yelling: Malfalda at eachother. Why... I'll never know.
The first day at the house was spent by the pool - very hot and I worked on my tan for a bit. Didn't really swim - I'm more the type that strutts my stuff looking hot in a bikini ;)

Next day we took a long drive along the Vinho Verde-route, saw some really nice little towns and wineyards.
Then off to Porto. The others took a guided tour and I went shopping on my own. Picked up a fab pair of shoes, a new suit...very business, John Legend-cd and a very cool designer bag.

Dinner at a french/portugese-restaurant and then back to the villa.

The last day it all came to a small crisis... had quite the blow out with Mi and Jonas about their behaviour, mostly concerning times and the car they were driving. Hopefully we will all meet sometime soon and try to work things out. They won't be joining us next years.... that is if we will go next year. Right now it seems like we won't but never say never...

Listened to Joh Legend alld ay yesterday... god he is so great. How great wouldn't a duet John Legend and Lenny Kravitz be?!?!?! I'd buy the album.. Speaking of wich have to go by some recordstore and pick up the new R Kelly and the new Bodies without Organ cd's today. Or maybe I'll be lazy and get them online...

Aha, the officecutie is wearing the shirt I picked out for him and it makes him look very good. He should however do something about his jeans the are not by far thight enough! I'll work on that ;) I mean if you have a nice booty you must show it off!

So today I'm going to check out a new couch after work. I have seen this ine that I like but I'm not sure - it's quite a big desicion to make. How do you know when it's the right one?!?!

I mean, I have trouble choosing what to wear to work so how can I choose couch and not to mention man?!?! Hannah thinks I should go for A, according to her we are great togehter but I'll see what happens... on the other hand she also thinks M - the office cutie is ment for me. Apparently women have a tendencie to choose a man that reminds them of their father which he does... Oh well, I'll just go with the flow and listen to John Legend while I'm flowing :)


Better get back to work now!

Have a great day!
Love

Song of the day: Alright with me - John Legend

Not where I should be...

Today is the first day of my vacation and where am I?? In bed - no, having a fab brunch - no!

I am at work! Why?? No one really knows...

Got all my packing done last night anyway. And for once I managed to keep things to a minimun. Will do some serious shopping in Lisbon instead. Hannah and I are hooking up to take the A-train to the airport. Decided which look I'm going for: it's casual city-girl today.
Black skirt and white halterneck..looking very nice.

Took a long lunch with office-cutie yesterday and did some shopping. He looks very nice today in clothes I picked out for him :) Tried to get him to buy a cool hat but he chickened out "not ready" yet. He did however buy a pair of red shoes which look very nice. I stopped by MAC to get a new eyeliner but the colour I wanted was out... Am right now obsessed with silver and blue make up. Today I'm going to the bank to pick up the check for the deposit. Tried to do it yesterday but since I didn't have the address right the woman wouldn't help me. She said she didn't have time... Uuuhhhmmm I believe I am the customer in this case and the customer is always right, right?!?! So I'm goin to another office today to see if the service is better there.

So, tonight I'll be in Lisbon. Portugal and Spain are experiencing the hottest summer in a long time...
Just spoke to my Lisbon-poose and they are fine. It's hot but very nice.

Better get back to work now!

Don't really know when I'll be updating next time but I'll keep you posted on my portugese adventures

Take care
Love/E

Song of the day: I'm on my way - Ricky Martin

Summertime - DJ Jazzy Jeff and the Fresh Prince

I have worshipped...

in the Electric Church and I am a believer...

Had a wonderful weekend in spite of everything that has been happening lately.

Spent Friday with some of the EC-crowd By The Sea with great food, nice drinks and some champagne.
Went over to sis place on Saturday to fix some stuff with the digitalcamera. Must get myself a computer... well at least after my vacation. Saturday night was then Lenny-night. Sthlm's finest - ie Gonzo and myself- strutted our stuff first over a few glasses of wine at Clarion and the at Hovet. Dancing, singing, and sweating ;) Absolutely fab. Great song list, nice stage set-up and all. And of course Lenny K - the minister of Rock and Roll. Was so happy all night. After the concert we went to Ingrid & Per for some drinks.

Sunday I had my vacation-posse over for some BBQ and Portugal-planning. Mattias' girlfriend Maria might join us in Porto. Wonder what that will be like. She seems very sweet but very sporty. For me, the cocktail-princess, it's quite tiresome. I mean what's wrong with spending a day by the pool with a bottle of wine?!?!

Today I might pick up a new bikini if I can find the energy. It is so warm today so I just want to be out in the sun with a good book and my Ipod.
Should probably start planning my packing for Portugal as I'm leaving on Wednesday. Hmmm, I wonder what I should wear on the plane?!?! Do I want to be the fab citygirl, the business woman or the relaxed vacationer???

Oh, by the way picked up the coolest shoes on Friday. Think pink pinups and flower you'll get the basic idea.
I think I'm gonna take a picture of them and post here...

Ok, time to go now
Take care

Song of the day: Mama said - Lenny Kravitz

Lenny-day

So, today is the big Lenny Kravitz-day! Consert with Gonzo and Ingrid tonight.

Will be meeting up with Gonzo at Clarion to get some food and the of to Hovet to see Lenny
Am so looking forward to this.

Spent the evening yesterday with the EC-crowd. Or at least some of them. Had a very nice evening at Brasserie by the Sea with dinner and quite a few drinks, some interesting conversations and good laughs...

Heading to Portugal on Wednesday with Hannah to meet up the rest of the gang. Will be so great.

Well must be off now. Have a great week end!

Love

Song of the day: anything with Luther Vandross
May you rest in peace and God bless

Robyn - Be mine "you never where and you never will be mine"